I'm back baby and I'm starting full throttle this year.
There are enough sayings to
make you believe we have the power to redeem ourselves. After all, didn't
Christ rise in like three days? (Okay, maybe I shouldn't compare myself to the
savior of all mankind. But you get the point.) Some redemption examples: Hit
rock bottom and there's no place to go but up! Like a phoenix out of the ashes
we rise!
Whoever tagged these famous
pick-me-up lines, I'm using and abusing them this year. I plan never to go back
to 2018. It's done and over. Put it in the books as finished. Stuff it in
a grave and bless its little soul.
Many great things happened. I
had an interview and a humorous story published in our local paper called
Bravo. I was a writer for a diversity art installation that was shown at
libraries all along the Fox River Valley. Two of my finished stories will be
published in anthologies next year. These are personal accomplishments. My
children did many great things too. But the bad...Oh vey! And I'm not even
Jewish.
Depression is a MF of a beast.
I'll go into it later, maybe. It's hard to admit you are not invincible. It's
hard to talk about it when half the nation thinks depression is made up, or
it's the blues, or you're just having a bad day. Most of it was situational. It
was GO from day one until day 365. For example, this was one week: my husband was
traveling, I had to find a car to buy, we were leaving for a Florida vacation that Friday, my daughter had volleyball practice,
there was a school event and I had hurt my knee again. I learned to never buy a car when you're tired. The vultures (car salesmen) will prey on your fragile mind. But that's in the
past, shall we move on.
I have big things planned. It's
a sink or swim year, literally. And I'm not giving my life up for anyone. As my
friend mentioned, it's time to FLY, First Love Yourself. Many women forget we
are not dynamos. We run until we drop. We put too much value on what others
think about us. In the end, 100% we are responsible for our own lives. So we need to pick ourselves up and fight.
I'll get more into what I plan
to do with this blog as we troll along. For one, update it! I hope you join me. As I always
mention, friend me on Facebook under Debbie Kollar. I'm also starting 365
days of tweets on Twitter starting January 1st. It'll help me to learn to get to
the point, save me from depression and hopefully, make you smile. I have a good sense of humor if I do say so myself. They'll be
short, inspirational and funny. Honest! (Actually, Twitter requires this, or I
would probably push the word limit. I'm sneaky like that.) Here's to 2019!
